so I realize that I am taking a lot of classes that I hate, for instance, financial accounting and corporate finance. I really enjoy Literature classes, but that's about it. Science is pretty easy for me, so it's cool, but the class is such a bore. I'm quite confounded, recently, I feel trapped. I love tutoring, but I hate calling up the kid to make sure that he is still on board for tutoring, I hate arranging the times to tutor and thinking about it. I love the kids I have at church, but I hate going to church, getting ready for church, being in a car for 2 hours on the way there, and 2 hours on the way back. I love people, but I hate the superficial conversations that we use when we ask each other feakly, so how are you doing today? Most of all, I hate crowds. I love friends, but I hate the fake and half-hearted friendships there are. I'd rather know someone really well or not know him/her at all, the middle ground is for cowards, i think. '
So you see there are quite a lot of contradictions in my life. Maybe this is the perfect example of the inner conflicts on man vs. society.